I've got to the point where I feel that everything I feel I've felt before. Maybe that sounds odd. I feel a bit frustrated at the moment. I think it's because my time here is starting to come to an end. The church is talking about next year. Will they get someone, who will they get? I tend to keep thinking that things are not worth doing because I'll be going and won't be able to follow through. I feel like my ministry is so superficial. I know that there have been deep points. I know that I have made a mark. But somehow I want more!
And actually, my feelings are probably more affected by uncertainty over next year and missing my family.
Meaningless, everything is meaningless.
Just how I feel - not what I believe!