Wednesday, December 31, 2008


Today has been packing. Books into boxes, clothes into suitcases and the guitar and computer as they come. I trust everything is going to fit into the cars!
Right now, I am nervous. I've worked through so much stuff in the last couple of weeks. I'm not really sure how to BE a minister. Maybe I mean a Minister with a capital M. I like doing the things a minister does, but I'm not into this Reverend stuff. I'm just me, that God has called for some reason known only to himself. I can only be me. I know I'm sometimes a bit 'different'. Maybe people won't like that. But if I start off pretending then things will only get worse. So, I guess I've worked through that.
But it is not good leaving my family. I know that God will see us through, but I'm not convinced that this is the best way.
We will all persevere - in the belief that it does produce character - and trust to God that no unrecoverable damage occurs to any psyches along the way.


Steven Jones said...

Hi Jen

All the best for the New Year. I'm sure that 2009 will be a blessing, and a HUGE learning curve for us all.

I agree with you on the family thing - not ideal at all. But let's be thankful for modern communications, and most of all, thankful to God who will carry us through.

Don't stress too much about the whole "Rev" thing - just be yourself. When I had my collaring service, my mom asked me how she should now address me. I replied that "Hey You" has worked fairly well for nearly 40 years, so why change?

See you in PE on the 13th.


Rock in the Grass (Pete Grassow) said...

the God who called you is already waiting for you in your new appointment. All you can be is what you have been to God up to now - a beloved daughter.

Jenny Hillebrand said...

Thanks guys. Halfway to Grahamstown - in Gariep for the night. I'm glad the waiting is over. I will be happier when things are happening!