Thursday, December 24, 2009

How Small?

I received this in an email I subscribe to:

It’s a gift to joyfully recognize and accept our own smallness and ordinariness. Then you are free with nothing to live up to, nothing to prove, and nothing to protect. Such freedom is my best description of Christian maturity, because once you know that your “I” is great and one with God, you can ironically be quite content with a small and ordinary “I.” No grandstanding is necessary. Any question of your own importance or dignity has already been resolved once and for all and forever.

So, does one 'sell oneself' or does one accept one's smallness and ordinariness?


Thomas O. Scarborough said...

My spontaneous response: one seeks to be a blessing. Yet one cannot be a blessing out of oneself. Only by pointing to God.

Jenny Hillebrand said...

There has to be a tension. A letting go of oneself and finding God and then pulling oneself (with God's help) into the place where he wants you. We cannot just let go and we cannot just pull ourselves. It must be a partnership with God - where he is the senior partner!
I am thinking a lot about Mary. Humble and poor, yet not allowed to stay hidden away in obscurity.

Thomas O. Scarborough said...

Hello again Jenny. It's hard to tell what you mean, for me. I don't seem to think in the same terms.

I myself am contemplating stripping the academnic undergrowth out of my thesis, to make it accessible to a wider audience. Why? Because I'm concerned about the audience. I know their struggles. I've experienced it. Do I intend to sell myself? No. But I'll do what's necessary to state my credentials, and make my work known, for the benefit of those who struggle, and haven't had the help that I myself was blessed to have in their position. So again, I myself would think in terms of bringing a blessing, given that God grants that blessing to those who read anything I wrote. I don't think the "I" really comes into my thinking. Why should I think of "my" anything?

Incidentally I did a few electronic projects books, and did close to no advertising. My royalties are close to $1,000 at the moment, which is not a smashing success, but not a failure. At one point, I considered hiring some graduate student to market them.

P.S. Son Matthew wants to add Charli as a friend on Facebook.

Jenny Hillebrand said...

Hi Thomas
I do hear what you are saying - I think I am struggling with my own particular weakness in this area. Sooner or later I guess I'll figure it out.
I'd actually like to read your thesis - I just keep putting it off. Will email you and also re facebook!