Tuesday, April 06, 2010

Back to Work

Today it feels like the Monday of all Mondays. And it's Tuesday. Holidays are over, the hype of Easter is done and now it is back to the daily slog. I think the most difficult thing is 'changing mode' - going from holiday and freedom back to discipline and other people's demands. In my flat at SMMS. Feeling that I don't want to be here. My husband is probably still in bed at home. I've done quite a lot of internal wrestling this last week. Moved from depression to almost a state of elation on Easter Sunday evening. Bouncing around like someone with bipolar disorder - not that I want to minimise anyone else's more serious struggling.
I've come back to college with more determination to be true to myself, but without any real idea of how to go about it.
But as I merge back into the stream of work, hopefully that determination will find practical shape.
Take a deep breath. Jump in. It'll be ok.

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