Thursday, May 20, 2010

Nothing new

I committed myself, this month, to doing nothing new. At least in terms of what I am doing at seminary. I find myself on a rollercoaster of new ideas and possibilities and it becomes a hamster wheel as well as a rollercoaster. I start feeling depressed and inadequate if I haven't done something that seems radical to somebody - according to whatever arcane way of knowing I use at the time.
So, this month I was to do nothing new. It's like withdrawing from an addiction. But I'm starting to find space to dream more realistically. To think of meaningful things that I can do that hopefully don't involve rollercoasters of any sort.
Today, I get to regroup. Where am I going with Brentwood Methodist Church? I've been reasonably passive for a couple of weeks, what has happened? And I am going to work on my PhD proposal. And hopefully read some stuff that I've been wanting to read for ages.
I suspect the day will be too short . . .

2 comments:

Thomas Scarborough said...

(Who's the Hillebrand in the obits?)

Jenny Hillebrand said...

My father-in-law. 83, died on Monday. We flew into CT Friday morning for the funeral and flew out Friday evening! Thought of you . . .
Thanks for noticing.